| What I Lived For
from WALDEN, Henry David Thoreau
(abridged)
"There was a shepherd that did live,
And held his thoughts as high
As were the mounts whereon his flocks
Did hourly feed him by."
What should we think of the shepherd's life if his flocks always
wandered to higher pastures than his thoughts? Every morning was a cheerful invitation to
make my life of equal simplicity, and I may say innocence, with Nature herself. I have
been as sincere a worshipper of Aurora as the Greeks. I got up early and bathed in the
pond; that was a religious exercise, and one of the best things which I did.
They say that characters
were engraven on the bathing tub of King Tchingthang to this effect: "Renew thyself
completely each day; do it again, and again, and forever again." I can understand
that. Morning brings back the heroic ages. I was as much affected by the faint hum of a
mosquito making its invisible and unimaginable tour through my apartment at earliest dawn,
when I was sitting with door and windows open, as I could be by any trumpet that ever sang
of fame. It was Homer's requiem; itself an Iliad and Odyssey in the air, singing its own
wrath and wanderings. There was something cosmical about it; a standing advertisement,
till forbidden, of the everlasting vigor and fertility of the world. The morning, which is
the most memorable season of the day, is the awakening hour. Then there is least
somnolence in us; and for an hour, at least, some part of us awakes which slumbers all the
rest of the day and night. Little is to be expected of that day, if it can be called a
day, to which we are not awakened by our Genius, but by the mechanical nudgings of some
servitor, are not awakened by our own newly acquired force and aspirations from within,
accompanied by the undulations of celestial music, instead of factory bells, and a
fragrance filling the air -- to a higher life than we fell asleep from; and thus the
darkness bear its fruit, and prove itself to be good, no less than the light.
That man who does not
believe that each day contains an earlier, more sacred, and auroral hour than he has yet
profaned, has despaired of life, and is pursuing a descending and darkening way. After a
partial cessation of his sensuous life, the soul of man, or its organs rather, are
reinvigorated each day, and his Genius tries again what noble life it can make. All
memorable events, I should say, transpire in morning time and in a morning atmosphere. The
Vedas say, "All intelligences awake with the morning." Poetry and art, and the
fairest and most memorable of the actions of men, date from such an hour. All poets and
heroes, like Memnon, are the children of Aurora, and emit their music at sunrise. To him
whose elastic and vigorous thought keeps pace with the sun, the day is a perpetual
morning. It matters not what the clocks say or the attitudes and labors of men. Morning is
when I am awake and there is a dawn in me. Moral reform is the effort to throw off sleep.
Why is it that men give so poor an account of their day if they have not been slumbering?
They are not such poor calculators. If they had not been overcome with drowsiness, they
would have performed something. The millions are awake enough for physical labor; but only
one in a million is awake enough for effective intellectual exertion, only one in a
hundred millions to a poetic or divine life.
To be awake is to be alive.
I have never yet met a man who was quite awake. How could I have looked him in the face? |